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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 20:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He resisted the act ,that day.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Put me off passion for life!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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I don,t even have a pension.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Im still living with it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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(And it was in our own minds.)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He knew the spot.

How does a 45-year-old man get a girlfriend?

Who then, do I blame.?

And i lived it daily.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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Comes on , in middle age.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

When she asked me how she looked .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

So, i spoilt her more .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She loved him until the end.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She married twice! .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was very sick at this time too.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I have no regrets .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

So whats the point in blame.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I couldn’t, believe it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My life is so biszare .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My family never makes their pension either.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was 9 years of age.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She found it foreign!.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She was in good health!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

What did i know ?

She wouldn,t have been !

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But, we were locked up after school.

I think the readers, may guess!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why did i forgive my father ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But it wasn’t much.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We were not on the streets..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Ive learnt so much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was seconnd youngest,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I waited trembling.

All the time i was locked up.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I will be 64.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I said to her

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is soul school!.

I write beautiful poetry .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was scared of men, in general

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot live in the past .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Would this be the day?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We all went to grammer schools

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

It was going to be , some day.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!